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It seems normal, my life. But somehow every once in a day, i'll think of -

And it just doesnt make sense. it has been 7.5 months, No texts no meet ups no nothing

I hate lingering around. But i dont even hate it this time. I dont know what am i waiting for, its very unlike me, but i just leave it as it is. Because i think if anything happens, i'll lose myself

Its not like theres any chance, seeing as how there were no wishes on my bday. tbh i was soooo damn pissed that day, i deleted all the past convos and num. but 2/52 after, i resaved it -

I think im going outta my mind, but somehow i know, ill always remember those times. Because it was so much fun, and

There was this score, that i refused to tell last time. It was 9/10 then, but i kept it to myself. Then in july i decided it was not worth it, and de-evaluated it to 5/10.

Now i think i'ts back to 9/10 cause its quite special

- i just hope the next time im reading this again, i wont feel this ?hollow anm

But i think those are all good memories, and i've somehow slowly accepted it as it is now.

It is and will always be beautiful in my head. some times i wish i could go back to the past, but that's in the past.

Still, good memories are good memories, and its always gonna be 9/10. I somehow just hope you know and feel the same.