Have you ever..

Felt so strangely about an individual that you just lost it whenever that person is around. That feeling, it feels as though you are keeping your head down in a pool of sparkling dopamine-releasing waters on a strikingly hot sunny day, the waters are like an exhilarating breath of fresh air, but at the same heart-lifting moment you have to keep making a struggling effort to hold your breath underwater - it's a wonderful experience which carries along with it a measurable amount of suffocation.

Why why why cant i let it go?

I know it's wrong, this fallacious anticipation. But does it hit you, too?

I hate 8ams, but i'm actually giving a serious thought about all the 8ams. Geez.