And I don't want the world to see me, cause I don't think that they'd understand

HELLO! Right now, I'm splayed across my bed, typing furiously into my teeny weeny phone because there's just this urge, like, somehow I feel the need to reconnect to myself, my older self, because lately things around me have changed a lotttt, it's sorta like a gradual process, and that to me is the scariest part because it only means that I'd either overlooked the change or allowed it, subconsciously, to manifest itself into a full blown state of reality.

IT'S LIKE A DAZE.

I can't even bring myself to describe it cause the thing is, I'm not sure how or when or what has changed in or around me, the only truth is that I just feel DIFFERENT. It's like I have gotten a relapse of my past behaviour; I'm unmotivated, I'm sluggish I'm just.. At a bad state of being.

I postulated that this is due to a recent past failure, or just pure fear.

I hate being fearful. Being in a daze. Nothing else can be worse that living in an utter total state of confusion and fear. What is there to overcome, when the fear is persistently, 24/7 hovering over your shoulder like a cold that wont go away?

I just wish, that all this will come to an end eventually.

Anyway, I'm watching revenge season 3 episode 1 now on my lappy so goodbye . It's the least I could do now to remind me of me