it had to be me.

I woke up today, tossed around, thought of how long i'd waited last night and i sighed bigbig time. It's funny how you can once be so close to some people and the next thing you know, they've all become strangers to you. I don't know why, but i sorta blame me, for your indifference. Like, it had to be me, being not good / smart / pretty / friendly / fun enough.


And, I kinda prefer to be in solitude than in a crowd now. Hmmpppph. I dislike being alone, but i sort of hesitate being in a crowd too. Think i'm slowly slipping back into the comfort zone. :/ Hurm, i must keep my foot outside the line. Outside!


You know i once heard this phrase from Detective Don Flack in CSI. You can choose to hide away, or to believe in the best version of yourself. I must mustmust choose the latter. Life ain't that hard, right? Think nice, and it'll be nice.


Okiee now my mood's getting better. Hehee. That's one thing i like about writing. Well, this week.. It's week 1 of the new semester, and my first module now is Metabolism. PBL mates have changed as well, and i'm okie with mine. Hmm.. What else? Ohya. The AMSEP thingie. I kept missing all the meetings, and consequently, i've missed out on like, almost everything. It's irresponsible i know. And.. And that make me sad.


Mmm.. You know what kuey leng gou is? There're 2 types: the black ones and the white ones. I've tried both, and i like the white ones better cause they're sweeter.


Oh rite. Sweeeet 19 YYJ!! Many many happiness-es, Joo Joo. Hehee.