i resolve to live pretty.

I wasn't really myself today. I went out all day long today, starting at 12pm to 11.30pm. And i took monorail, cabs, LRT. Hmm. I even went to Sg Wang today, and met up with a friend from UPM. Then we had dinner at Gasoline.


Sometimes i look back and realise that i'm not completely sure of who i am.


I'm flawed. Severely flawed at times. All that you read from this blog is the pretty, decorated part of my life, cause i seldom write about the other side. So it makes me wonder, have i changed for the better over the year, or have i just fallen into the same old, tiring patterns over and over. Do i think before i act, and do i buy something i really like or do i just buy it for the sake of buying. Have i learnt to treasure all that i have, or have i just lied to myself, so that i'd feel better. Do i actually stay quiet because it's my true nature or do i behave the way i am, cause of clouding uncertainties.


I'm afraid. And that creates a barrier to others. Cause they always amaze me with their ease.


On one side, i always say that i am me. The good, quiet girl.


But on the other side, i say i need to make some changes. I need to talk more make more efforts think more.


So which one, i'm confused.


I'm me. And this year, i resolve to live pretty. Whoever whatever i turn out to be, i'll give myself the best try in all that i do.


I resolve.


:)