talks i hate.
How do you warm a cup of cold chocolate when it's snowing outside? I do not know.
Indifference is lethal. That much i know.
***
Long story short, i got up at 6.30am today, got my face washed and teeth brushed in a dash, then hurriedly took a ride back to my residential college from my aunt's place in Cheras at 6.40am.
Upon reaching my college, it was 7am sharp, and i ran up the stairs to my room to unload all my stuffs down onto the floor before rushing down to the bus stop to wait for the 7.15am bus that would bring me to KL campus for the Amsa Alert thingy. Somehow really, last-minute thingies are my kinda thingies. =)
I don't have much to say about Amsa Alert, but i do have much to say about how i felt. Ha-ha.
Sometimes, in the midst of conversing to some new strangers, do you happen to notice the slightest hint of hestitation that briefly dawn upon their eyes? Like, somehow the person you're conversing to finds you less interesting than what he or she first expected you to be. I see that, like 9 out of 10 times. I really see that moment of regret in most people's eyes whenever they talk to me. Like, i'm not good enough and i just let them down.
I don't know.
Maybe that is why, i'm quiet most of the time. I don't know what to talk about anymore.
And silence, it's notably consequential. Once you get used to it, any happy noises can turn out to be an offending interruption from then on.
Don't hear me. Listen.
Indifference is lethal. That much i know.
***
Long story short, i got up at 6.30am today, got my face washed and teeth brushed in a dash, then hurriedly took a ride back to my residential college from my aunt's place in Cheras at 6.40am.
Upon reaching my college, it was 7am sharp, and i ran up the stairs to my room to unload all my stuffs down onto the floor before rushing down to the bus stop to wait for the 7.15am bus that would bring me to KL campus for the Amsa Alert thingy. Somehow really, last-minute thingies are my kinda thingies. =)
I don't have much to say about Amsa Alert, but i do have much to say about how i felt. Ha-ha.
Sometimes, in the midst of conversing to some new strangers, do you happen to notice the slightest hint of hestitation that briefly dawn upon their eyes? Like, somehow the person you're conversing to finds you less interesting than what he or she first expected you to be. I see that, like 9 out of 10 times. I really see that moment of regret in most people's eyes whenever they talk to me. Like, i'm not good enough and i just let them down.
I don't know.
Maybe that is why, i'm quiet most of the time. I don't know what to talk about anymore.
And silence, it's notably consequential. Once you get used to it, any happy noises can turn out to be an offending interruption from then on.
Don't hear me. Listen.
>.<
Rite! I've gotta look through my PBL. Adios.
posted by Jiali Lau at
8:36 PM
2 Comments:
that's self conciousness n yr own perception of what others may think of u. Low self esteem is a stumbling block. Believe in yrself n know u"re born for greater thgs. Have faith girl,why bother what u think others think of u. Just be yrself, yr own natural self
OKIE. =)
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