Me. small.

To not get what you want,
only you learn to appreciate what you've got.
-ME

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I used to believe that my dreams will all come true.
Somewhere deep in my heart, i used to know that someday, i'll be someone special, one-of-a-kind.
Also, i used to carry a pocketful of sunshine in both my palms, and H.O.P.E was my confidant.

Right this moment, i don't know how i did that anymore. i don't know where i've misplaced my pocketful of sunshine, where i've lost my belief, my confidence. The only way i can reason with myself is that i've grown up, and well, adults - they just don't have that kind of childlike mindset anymore. Adults don't believe in dreams-come-true and happy-endings. Adults know that nothing is fair in this world, that no matter how hard you try, you will not get what you really want, if it is not meant for you. You would never have guessed how badly i wanted a band 6. I know i can cry like this forever and things will just remain the same. i've learned today that dreams never come true. Fairytales, you know, i want to believe, but i can't anymore. i can't cause reality proves me wrong, every single time.